This is a paper I wrote for Psychology 101 class: …

This is a paper I wrote for Psychology 101 class:

The subject is my alter ego, Siddman. He is the thinking man who talks less but when he does talk, he does it well. He’s usually quiet, not the typical guy. He wraps himself in mystery. Not the most outgoing guy he does goes to parties once in a while. Siddman spent most of his childhood alone by himself until his sister was born. At that time he was looking after her. He’s was the responsible big brother and the best son anyone can ever have! He also was a bright student. Since his father was busy and out of town most of time, gradually Siddman took over chores and became more of a man of the house. Having house full of women meant he didn’t have too much exposure with many males. Being the only son of a paranoid mother, Siddman never got to do explore his Id as much as other kids did. Currently he is in the middle of Oedipal conflict and The Latency Period. Since Siddman’s family responsibilities never left him, his Ego is slowly losing the battle with Superego. He avoids unnecessary risks such as relationships, any activities that might get him into physical or other harm.

Throughout his development, Siddman has created Siddmanland, his own personal world. A place where rules are made and broken by him. Where he can be all that he wanted to be but couldn’t. Although he gets along fine with women, he has suppressed anger and issues because of his mother’s controlling nature. He’s denies himself normal social activities by considering himself better than others. He thinks he is a superhero. Being superhuman means he doesn’t have to do what everyone else does. Freud would be surprised seeing how Siddman is going along everyday pretending to be a normal person with so much fragmentation inside him. How can this be possible? This reminds me of a line from Seinfeld, “Serenity now, Insanity later”. Freud might say that this person will probably go insane during later time of his life. All the suppressed Id will fight to come out and drive him to do crazy things.

Erikson’s conflict theory applies to Siddman’s life just as well if not more than Freud’s theories. Conflict between the needs of the individual and the needs of the environment did not get resolved in this case and it is definitely leading him to negative mindset. Siddman never liked having too many people at home, but his parent’s siblings and relatives would pack the house, keeping his parents away from him. Now he hates family life and wants to be alone. Intimacy vs. Isolation is playing strong part here. Ironically, Siddman is a family man where his mom is somewhat like his wife and his sister is his child. Technically he is married and fulfilled society’s silly little events. Erikson would agree with Freud about Siddman’s dark future as well. This guy is really screwed up, that’s what he might say.

Both Freud and Erickon’s theories make perfect sense when we look at Siddman’s journey through life. Both of them are reaching the same conclusion. Freud is looking from the inside out and Erickson is looking from outside in. Different point of view but same result in my opinion. Although both of them think Siddman is a future nutcase, I think since he survived this far, he just might make it to the end and find a balanced Ego after going on a binge of Ids.

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